The Rubber Band Theory

Have you ever gotten to the point in your life that you just get so sick of yourself? You look at all your belongings, think about the things you actually do with the time you have and wonder if you actually contribute anything good.

I don't like to live this way, but I don't mind having this thought from time to time. I guess it's like what my mentor says is the "rubber band theory". Sometimes I run so far away from God and the only reason I get farther away from Him is to delay the rebound. The rebound hurts and sometimes it can bring devastating news. I know why He does it. I get so focused on other issues and put things higher than Him on my list. The rebound is just His way of letting me know that He means business and I need to get back on track.

I apparently am very stubborn and a slow learner because I have been put through His trials more than I can count. Just when I think I have things under control and am finally on track with my life, the "experimental errors" start to show up and turn my results into another shot at a different hypothesis. These experimental errors are more like my temptations and other things that cause chaos to ensue between my relationship with the Lord.

I know I'm not perfect, and I know I will never come close to being it, but I still want to shoot for that goal. I want to be the man that tries his best to please the Lord in everything that I do. David did it. He did it so well, that God even said he was after His own heart. David is a good example, but he was still a man who had his flaws.

And I think that is where I have problems. I look towards other tangible examples in my life to try to live like. It's not a bad thing to do; if something looks like the correct way to do things, then you should probably imitate that. However, I haven't been looking at the best example out there.

I mean, I have His book. I have read it, but do I truly understand it? If I were to truly read what He says, then I should live my life according to His way. Whatever happened that made me lose sight of it all? What happened to that fire that burned so bright inside of me. It is truly difficult to have faith like a child?  I just recently came out of that stage of life (even though my family would still say I am there) and I am not so sure I should have progressed onto my adult faith.

These are just words right now. They don't mean anything unless I truly act upon them. Its exactly what Jesus yelled at the Pharisees about. I don't want to be a superficial Christian. I want my love and faith in Christ to be on the inside as well as out.

So my challenge is for you, my friends, to keep me accountable. Remind me of the words that I say here.  Make me live out what I say. No excuses from me.
                                                                                                                                       
"Personality is who you are when you are around other people; character is who you are when you are alone." - Anonymous

Like a Lion

"My God is not dead,
He's surely alive,
And He's living on the inside
Roaring like a lion."
-David Crowder Band

Anytime I hear this lyric, I think about "The Chronicles of Narnia". I think about Aslan and how he was resurrected at the Stone Table.

How even death could not defeat him...
How he sprang back to life and engaged in the war...
How he defeated the White Witch...

Then I think about the comparison to Jesus Christ, the Lion of Judah.

How He lives within me...
How He wants me to engage in the spiritual war all around me...
How He can defeat the demons that plague me...

I feel Him roaring. He wants to get out and run free. He wants me to trust Him. Let go of the stress that I hold onto and to stop looking back.

I want to let go.
I want to have peace that never ceases.
I want the security that You bring.

I need You, Jesus!
I need You to come in my heart and revive me!
I need Your love!
                                                                                                                     
Mr. Tumnus - He's not a tame lion.
Lucy - No...but he is good.